Day ummm 3? 4?

Whatever. It's one of those days. So today is election day and I don't want to go to the gym. However, I decided when voting at the local school to walk home which is about 1 km away. I managed that, power walking, in about 15 - 20 minutes. Not impressive for some but when you are 140 kgs that's a decent effort. Anyway I feel really good about doing that so mood is currently happy happy happy :D Food is also going well so even better. This afternoon is the nine lives four paws rescue group kitten high tea. Long name but it raises money for these two people to save cats. We got our latest one from these guys and absolutely love and admire their work. If anyone actually reads this, http://www.gofundme.com/32h6q0 is their funding site. It's two young adults doing this all themselves so the more they can get, the better.

Day 2

Have just had a session at the gym and now I am completely shattered, in pain and extremely hyper all at once. Did 25 minutes cardio then 20 minutes of pin weights with a focus on arms. By the end of it I could not lift the weights anymore but I feel good about it. Also still avoiding buying any more evil things from bi lo :D So things are going well. For art I was sent a link to the artist Georges Seuart http://www.georgesseurat.org/home-4-24-1-0.html who is a brilliant artist and I am now hopelessly jealous. Randomly amusing, 6 people have viewed this blog. So hi to anyone who is. I'm using it as an online diary but if my struggles and whinges helps someone I am all for it.

Day 1

So read this http://www.montrealgazette.com/Opinion+Misconception+that+plus+size+women+inactive+must/8770093/story.html and thought yes, I have that problem. Getting sports bra in my size is not actually possible and, being a full figured woman, bouncing around exercising can actually be damn painful. Anyways as promised, my actually weight is 143 kg. Put on 0.3 last week sigh. But this is the fresh start and next Wednesday there will be a lost on this blog! Today wasn't too bad. Breakfast was cocoa pops, which is bad but it was that or Gloria Jeans stuff so it works. Lunch was baked potato and chicken with a small amount of cheese, dinner is going to be slow cooked lamb. Snacks were 3 cupcakes :( but also grapes which is awesome. Plus did not buy any more food today which sounds basic but I always stop by bi lo and grab bad food. No exercise except bathroom cleaning but as noted yesterday, it is a long long uni day on Thursdays. Tomorrow I have plans to go to the gym. In other news, I'm getting so much better at art. Still no where near a professional level but liking what's happening and getting a large variety of things. We did etching today, oil painting, acrylics, charcoal, pen and pencil. All a lot of fun :)

In the beginning

the earth was flat. Or not. It's just what my mind says whenever I hear the phrase in the beginning. Anyways this is supposed to be a personal diary/ reflection/ ramble about the task of losing weight. Which I really need to. too? It's late, I'm running out of grammatical correctness. So. I will say, or rather type it, for all to see. I am 140 kg. Yep, you read that right. I'm 5 foot 6 at most and double the weight I should be. I was going to upload a photo but I don't have one of me on this computer so that will have to wait. As a quick history lesson, I have been overweight since i was a very small child. This is through no fault of my mother before people tell me i had a terrible childhood. I had a wonderful childhood, it was just unfortunate that she had to deal with one child who ate everything in sight and another child that was such a fussy eater she was borderline anorexic. That same sister is still a size 10-12 and eats everything I wish I could. Chocolate, chips, garlic duets with hot chips for lunch every fricking day... My only hope is that all the weight catches up with her and she finds out how I feel looking at food and wanting it badly. Which sounds mean now that I think about it. Soz sis :( So, overweight for years. Overweight in school means self confidence dies a horrible death. Overweight in uni isn't so bad except walking across campus is a killer. Overweight as a primary school teacher however, not a good idea. In the rougher schools kids are honest about what they think and not afraid to tell you. Plus teaching healthy eating whilst being massively overweight is just plain wrong. I taught for a year in broken hill. It was my first time away from home, isolated in the middle of no where, i knew no one and did not make friends easily. Needless to say I fell into deep depression and ate my heart out. Which is why I ended up at over 150kgs. So far then, after a year of work I have lost 10 kgs. Which sounds awesome till you realise 1 year = 52 weeks and that means less than 0.2 kg a week. I have tried possibly every diet out there. The fasting diet, weight watchers, the shake diet, duromine, dietitians. It's a killer. However hopefully this round will be the round to win the battle. I have restarted weight watchers and today I joined anytime fitness. Weight watchers is tonight actually so can give an accurate when I get home. I am finding it difficult though. My doctor has me on antidepressants (which work well unless you forget to take them. Which I have twice now) and metforim or something like that for insulin resistance. No diabetes but polycystic ovaries are causing havoc as usual. Anyone else have facial hair that won't stop growing. I cringe every time I have to shave my face. Anyways this is seriously becoming a massive ramble. Which I enjoy immensely but the pile of assignments reminds me I do have other things to do. So day 1, ramble 1 and hopefully the beginning of a much more significant weight lost then I have had so far. 10 kg down and 70 to go!